Inspired....

I have been Inspired by this idea, I plan on making my list and doing this, keep following to see what I come up with!!!!!! I need a partner since I found this after the fact of it being done... Who is with me?!

When love might not be enough

Whether it is be your choice or fates choice, you can't help who you fall in love with... but families seem to think there is a divine decision that they get to play a part of. It is the most self esteem squishing moment when you find out that your loved ones family might not be fond of you, or think you are the right match. Because in your eyes and your loved ones eyes you both are perfect for each other which very well could be the case but marrying the love of your life means marrying their family.... I was out last night talking to some drunk girl at the bar and she was talking about a very similar situation that I am in. Her husbands parents were not fond of her despite how good of a girl she is, she just didn't fit the family mold. As a female this is SO disheartening because we as women want everyone to like us, especially our husbands mother!!! Her advice to me was stop caring, if your husband has chosen you and wants to spend the rest of his life with you, don't worry about the parents-in-law, in the long run they are going to see how happy you make their son, and if they can't love you for that... they aren't worth trying to make love you. The more women I talk to about parents-in-law not like the newest addition or the speaking of bring these people into family the more common I find it.. I am so glad that I am not anomaly in this situation... I am merely an addition to the tons and tons of women who have to deal with it... All I can do is promise to not give a reason for them to not like me, but I will not change who I am to make them like me...
On top of knowing that his family may not be my biggest cheerleaders in wanting to marry their son, I find out that my father is basically feeling the same way his father feels... There is no winning in love I guess.... it all comes down to hoping and praying that love will be enough to get through the tough times because we both know that love has gotten us this far... who says it won't keep on going for the next 50-100 years..... Love conquers all, I believe in love therefore I believe in its power to overcome even the most difficult of obstacles.....

Never again in this lifetime .....

11/11/11 is now.... 12/12/12 next year...but what happens after 12/12/12? Did you know that after December twelfth two-thousand and twelve for next 989 years we will never have a "lucky" day like that again? There is so much hype and superstitions that has been places on these triple number days, weddings, lotto's have been bought, casino’s get high visits, many movie releases take advantage of this, many wishes have been said and lots of hope has been put on these days. It is definitely something to think of knowing that your kids, grand kids, great grandkids, great- great-grandkids, great- great-grandkids….. great- great- great- great- great- great- great- great-grandkids will not experience the hype on these magical days . I mean for some this may not seem like anything but, it gets the brain working, what else will they not know that we hold dear to us? What is going to lost generation to generation? What can we do to preserve it?

Realization, inspiration, desire, and set back

Sorry for the writers block, life has been interesting without being writers worthy... But I am sure I can find something! I have moved my life to try and become more "organic" based, don't go thinking it will be come this snooty way of eating...but instead learning and practicing these habits now will only help me in my future living. I want to live more natural, I started with my skin care seeing that I am going into skin care here in the next month and I want to learn how to best give people a natural way to up keep their skin. My goal is to open my own spa and invent a line based off this idea of natural products and natural services....
Welp, writers block is back...
type ya later :)

Numb....

Numb to the pain, Numb to the emotion, Numb to thought. My life is a country song, My grandma passed away, put my oldest dog down and my sweetheart has moved to another country to go to school. It is amazing what a heart can endure before it just shuts off, I feel as if my heart and emotions have just stopped. I remember the huge emotion that I had/have in regards to my grandmother. I guess everything after losing her seems "easy". I haven't really posted or spoke or even went into to much emotion about her, at least outside of my head.
My grandmother was seriously the most amazing women ever, she was not only a grandmother to me, but to everyone who she met. She kept me up to date on the latest gossip and tabloids. She was the best listener, she was always someone I could go to. It was like a little sanctuary within a crazy day. She was supportive, loving and funny. There are many things in my life that I wouldn't have been able to do with out her. My most amazing life experience I owe to her, my sorority. I wouldn't have been able to do such a great thing with out her. I looked to her for strength in dealing with hard thing. With all the things my grandmother had been through in her life, she was just the most gracious blessing in the world. I consider myself so lucky to have had her in my life. My grandmother use to tell me a story about her true love, and how she let him get away. That story inspires me to learn from her lesson. I will fight for the people I love and not let challenges stop me but let me learn and grow. Funny thing about this story, when my cousins were back in her town where this man was, some how he got the number and called and told my cousins that he loved Rita, always has, even 50 years later. I never wanted to be like that. Thank you grandma for helping me not pass up on the love of my life because it is harder.

I always told myself I couldn't see myself with a person that didn't understand either the great relationship a person can have with a grandparent, or even they had not met my grandma. My significant other was able to meet her while she was still well and was with me during some of the hardest hours in her passing. I can not even find words to begin to describe how grateful I felt to have him there and available to be my shoulder to cry on, my ear to listen to me. I have a special amazing bond with my grandmother and for a moment he was able to see it, he held her hand and kissed her forehead. What man can do that?! My amazing man can, I wish I could write more about how amazing he was and has been during this, but there are no words to even begin to start to say how appreciative I am.

You were on my mind all day today, not like that's anything new. I speak your name daily, and my heart continues to ache for you. grandma know, I'll never be done loving you. You may be in a better place now, but in my heart You'll always remain. I miss you more then anyone could understand.

On to Mollie, my puppy of 10 years.... best friend a girl could ask for, she was well behaved, and always greeted you with a smile. she could turn any bad day to a great one just my putting her cold nose in your hand. I loved you, but how to explain a care for a pet is so hard.

and the man of my dreams going away (for a time period) that is a developing story...stay tuned :) All I know....He is the forever for sure!