Thursday, November 10, 2011
Never again in this lifetime .....
11/11/11 is now.... 12/12/12 next year...but what happens after 12/12/12? Did you know that after December twelfth two-thousand and twelve for next 989 years we will never have a "lucky" day like that again? There is so much hype and superstitions that has been places on these triple number days, weddings, lotto's have been bought, casino’s get high visits, many movie releases take advantage of this, many wishes have been said and lots of hope has been put on these days. It is definitely something to think of knowing that your kids, grand kids, great grandkids, great- great-grandkids, great- great-grandkids….. great- great- great- great- great- great- great- great-grandkids will not experience the hype on these magical days . I mean for some this may not seem like anything but, it gets the brain working, what else will they not know that we hold dear to us? What is going to lost generation to generation? What can we do to preserve it?
Monday, November 7, 2011
Realization, inspiration, desire, and set back
Sorry for the writers block, life has been interesting without being writers worthy... But I am sure I can find something! I have moved my life to try and become more "organic" based, don't go thinking it will be come this snooty way of eating...but instead learning and practicing these habits now will only help me in my future living. I want to live more natural, I started with my skin care seeing that I am going into skin care here in the next month and I want to learn how to best give people a natural way to up keep their skin. My goal is to open my own spa and invent a line based off this idea of natural products and natural services....
Welp, writers block is back...
type ya later :)
Welp, writers block is back...
type ya later :)
Monday, October 10, 2011
Numb....
Numb to the pain, Numb to the emotion, Numb to thought. My life is a country song, My grandma passed away, put my oldest dog down and my sweetheart has moved to another country to go to school. It is amazing what a heart can endure before it just shuts off, I feel as if my heart and emotions have just stopped. I remember the huge emotion that I had/have in regards to my grandmother. I guess everything after losing her seems "easy". I haven't really posted or spoke or even went into to much emotion about her, at least outside of my head.
My grandmother was seriously the most amazing women ever, she was not only a grandmother to me, but to everyone who she met. She kept me up to date on the latest gossip and tabloids. She was the best listener, she was always someone I could go to. It was like a little sanctuary within a crazy day. She was supportive, loving and funny. There are many things in my life that I wouldn't have been able to do with out her. My most amazing life experience I owe to her, my sorority. I wouldn't have been able to do such a great thing with out her. I looked to her for strength in dealing with hard thing. With all the things my grandmother had been through in her life, she was just the most gracious blessing in the world. I consider myself so lucky to have had her in my life. My grandmother use to tell me a story about her true love, and how she let him get away. That story inspires me to learn from her lesson. I will fight for the people I love and not let challenges stop me but let me learn and grow. Funny thing about this story, when my cousins were back in her town where this man was, some how he got the number and called and told my cousins that he loved Rita, always has, even 50 years later. I never wanted to be like that. Thank you grandma for helping me not pass up on the love of my life because it is harder.
I always told myself I couldn't see myself with a person that didn't understand either the great relationship a person can have with a grandparent, or even they had not met my grandma. My significant other was able to meet her while she was still well and was with me during some of the hardest hours in her passing. I can not even find words to begin to describe how grateful I felt to have him there and available to be my shoulder to cry on, my ear to listen to me. I have a special amazing bond with my grandmother and for a moment he was able to see it, he held her hand and kissed her forehead. What man can do that?! My amazing man can, I wish I could write more about how amazing he was and has been during this, but there are no words to even begin to start to say how appreciative I am.
You were on my mind all day today, not like that's anything new. I speak your name daily, and my heart continues to ache for you. grandma know, I'll never be done loving you. You may be in a better place now, but in my heart You'll always remain. I miss you more then anyone could understand.
On to Mollie, my puppy of 10 years.... best friend a girl could ask for, she was well behaved, and always greeted you with a smile. she could turn any bad day to a great one just my putting her cold nose in your hand. I loved you, but how to explain a care for a pet is so hard.
and the man of my dreams going away (for a time period) that is a developing story...stay tuned :) All I know....He is the forever for sure!
My grandmother was seriously the most amazing women ever, she was not only a grandmother to me, but to everyone who she met. She kept me up to date on the latest gossip and tabloids. She was the best listener, she was always someone I could go to. It was like a little sanctuary within a crazy day. She was supportive, loving and funny. There are many things in my life that I wouldn't have been able to do with out her. My most amazing life experience I owe to her, my sorority. I wouldn't have been able to do such a great thing with out her. I looked to her for strength in dealing with hard thing. With all the things my grandmother had been through in her life, she was just the most gracious blessing in the world. I consider myself so lucky to have had her in my life. My grandmother use to tell me a story about her true love, and how she let him get away. That story inspires me to learn from her lesson. I will fight for the people I love and not let challenges stop me but let me learn and grow. Funny thing about this story, when my cousins were back in her town where this man was, some how he got the number and called and told my cousins that he loved Rita, always has, even 50 years later. I never wanted to be like that. Thank you grandma for helping me not pass up on the love of my life because it is harder.
I always told myself I couldn't see myself with a person that didn't understand either the great relationship a person can have with a grandparent, or even they had not met my grandma. My significant other was able to meet her while she was still well and was with me during some of the hardest hours in her passing. I can not even find words to begin to describe how grateful I felt to have him there and available to be my shoulder to cry on, my ear to listen to me. I have a special amazing bond with my grandmother and for a moment he was able to see it, he held her hand and kissed her forehead. What man can do that?! My amazing man can, I wish I could write more about how amazing he was and has been during this, but there are no words to even begin to start to say how appreciative I am.
You were on my mind all day today, not like that's anything new. I speak your name daily, and my heart continues to ache for you. grandma know, I'll never be done loving you. You may be in a better place now, but in my heart You'll always remain. I miss you more then anyone could understand.
On to Mollie, my puppy of 10 years.... best friend a girl could ask for, she was well behaved, and always greeted you with a smile. she could turn any bad day to a great one just my putting her cold nose in your hand. I loved you, but how to explain a care for a pet is so hard.
and the man of my dreams going away (for a time period) that is a developing story...stay tuned :) All I know....He is the forever for sure!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Love, most used word in the world, but the most unknown true definition.
Love.....
You love your dog, you love your family, and you love your friends. But why?! What makes you decide that what you feel for someone is love? When you think of things, you love everything at very different levels, your family, religion, partner, friends...the list goes on and on. Let’s talk about a less expected but most talked about love; the love for a significant other. There are movies, novels, fairy tales, countless dreams, many tears and tons of "girl’s nights" spent on "love". But what is love? Is it the way you're looked at? The way they make you feel? Is it the amount of things that they buy you? What about the things you do together? It is whatever you think it is, but once you realize it, you will never forget it. The only problem with all of this is what says this is "the" love that you are to be with forever???? Let me break some things down for you in regards to experience:
You have your I love to spend every moment with them kind of love, this is usually your first love (now you need to have all of these components before you go riding off into the future with your new love, each scenario is just a stepping stone to show you the "real deal") I say this because it might be the first person that gives you the Whoooo special attention.
You have your yummy; I love to kiss this person love. This is the one that you just love to spend your time lip locking.
You have your I love your brain person because the things you say makes me think, and challenges my own intellectually side.
You have your I love the way you make me feel type of person. This is the person that makes you feel like the world is your oyster and that you can do anything that you put your mind to. This is also the kind of love that they look at you and you melt.
You have the I love you because your friends are awesome kind of person. This person might be a little dull, but there friends are amazing. This isn't a bad person to wrap you into because they can be the stay at home and go out kind of person. Which is a choice that you want.
When you find the person who is all of that and then some...you have found your forever love....consider yourself lucky...I know I do
You love your dog, you love your family, and you love your friends. But why?! What makes you decide that what you feel for someone is love? When you think of things, you love everything at very different levels, your family, religion, partner, friends...the list goes on and on. Let’s talk about a less expected but most talked about love; the love for a significant other. There are movies, novels, fairy tales, countless dreams, many tears and tons of "girl’s nights" spent on "love". But what is love? Is it the way you're looked at? The way they make you feel? Is it the amount of things that they buy you? What about the things you do together? It is whatever you think it is, but once you realize it, you will never forget it. The only problem with all of this is what says this is "the" love that you are to be with forever???? Let me break some things down for you in regards to experience:
You have your I love to spend every moment with them kind of love, this is usually your first love (now you need to have all of these components before you go riding off into the future with your new love, each scenario is just a stepping stone to show you the "real deal") I say this because it might be the first person that gives you the Whoooo special attention.
You have your yummy; I love to kiss this person love. This is the one that you just love to spend your time lip locking.
You have your I love your brain person because the things you say makes me think, and challenges my own intellectually side.
You have your I love the way you make me feel type of person. This is the person that makes you feel like the world is your oyster and that you can do anything that you put your mind to. This is also the kind of love that they look at you and you melt.
You have the I love you because your friends are awesome kind of person. This person might be a little dull, but there friends are amazing. This isn't a bad person to wrap you into because they can be the stay at home and go out kind of person. Which is a choice that you want.
When you find the person who is all of that and then some...you have found your forever love....consider yourself lucky...I know I do
Thursday, September 15, 2011
List of Pet Peeves
I consider myself a pretty easy going person, I was once told though that I get mad at everything, this completely surprised me because I have always seen myself as a light tempered person that it takes a lot to make upset. So I decided to figure out what really makes me upset, or emotional because for some reason people can't tell the difference.
1). I don't like being told what to do, or what not to be do. I am ok with advice, guidance but saying things with the expectation that I will do them doesn't fly with me.
2). When dating "hanging out with the friends" means you are hanging out with boys, when girls come that is annoying because that makes me wonder why I am not there. That just makes me more upset, and hurt that I was not thought to be included. Now typically a person wouldn't worry about this, unless you are me which means you will ALWAYS be invited to everything because I want you there.
3)Not texting/calling when you say you are going to. or not texting back...period....that ohhhh is so bad...texting is non invasive you can do it anytime of the day.
4) Being late, I hate being late places, the only time late is acceptable is when it is my fault because that means i did it, and can not blame anyone but myself.
5) not paying attention when on the phone, or video chat, because its one thing if you don't pay attention in person, I can see your distraction. When on the phone or video chat I can't see, so repeating myself just becomes annoying and irritating.
6) I get angry with stupid, lazy people.
7) I have a hard time with people who would rather "throw" things away than actually work for it.
8) Not understanding the actually significance of making time for people, I mean I get its easier to be with the one your with, but what about the ones who want to be with you?
9) People that don't know what they want in life
10) People who say one thing, act another. I mean you either think & act the way you say or don't say it. Like saying "your beautiful and that you would want to spend the rest of your life with me" then the next moment saying something completely different. It makes a person over think the truth of your thoughts.
Welp, whoooo that is all for now.... I still don't think I get angry easy because all of these things would make anyone upset....right?!
1). I don't like being told what to do, or what not to be do. I am ok with advice, guidance but saying things with the expectation that I will do them doesn't fly with me.
2). When dating "hanging out with the friends" means you are hanging out with boys, when girls come that is annoying because that makes me wonder why I am not there. That just makes me more upset, and hurt that I was not thought to be included. Now typically a person wouldn't worry about this, unless you are me which means you will ALWAYS be invited to everything because I want you there.
3)Not texting/calling when you say you are going to. or not texting back...period....that ohhhh is so bad...texting is non invasive you can do it anytime of the day.
4) Being late, I hate being late places, the only time late is acceptable is when it is my fault because that means i did it, and can not blame anyone but myself.
5) not paying attention when on the phone, or video chat, because its one thing if you don't pay attention in person, I can see your distraction. When on the phone or video chat I can't see, so repeating myself just becomes annoying and irritating.
6) I get angry with stupid, lazy people.
7) I have a hard time with people who would rather "throw" things away than actually work for it.
8) Not understanding the actually significance of making time for people, I mean I get its easier to be with the one your with, but what about the ones who want to be with you?
9) People that don't know what they want in life
10) People who say one thing, act another. I mean you either think & act the way you say or don't say it. Like saying "your beautiful and that you would want to spend the rest of your life with me" then the next moment saying something completely different. It makes a person over think the truth of your thoughts.
Welp, whoooo that is all for now.... I still don't think I get angry easy because all of these things would make anyone upset....right?!
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